to live another day for you...

2011-05-30T23:42:00.002+08:00

Kung Fu Panda 2
Was expecting quite alot from Kung Fu Panda 2 firstly because of the hype around the sequel since the beginning of the year and secondly because the first movie was such a funny and enjoyable one (in fact, i watched the first movie twice in cinemas!). Good news, Kung Fu Panda 2 does not disappoint!! I was not as surprised by the movie as the first because there was no expectations when i caught the first movie. But i think this movie was a worthy follow up even though it broke no new grounds.

Kids would LOVE this movie, but adults might find everything within their expectation. Everything is just like what everyone would have pictured it to be. The story was good but totally predictable and appeared many times over in animation pictures and movies alike. But with cute and adorable animation (baby panda!!!), Panda 2 is able to make movie goers go "awwwww".

One disappointment has got to be the humour level of this film. Most of the funny parts have already appeared in the trailer so it was not as funny as i have hoped this would be. But nonetheless, it was an entertaining animation with heart that would definitely please most audiences.

(3.5 stars)

2011-03-01T00:44:00.003+08:00

是时候
I know i've been absent from this blog for sometime, quite a long time in fact, haha. Finally found a song that gave me something to say, or should i say i finally found a song that spoke for me.

4 years of waiting - for this moment. It's Time. Yanzi is finally back after a long hiatus and it's a well spent one hearing the songs that are coming off this new album. Title track is a killer karaoke ballad just like the many other songs i've heard. Definitely going to get this album when it comes out on the 8th of March.

害怕看见你骤变的脸
也不想理解失温的语言
是时候该转身就走
从此放弃我们渴望的永久
不想承认你还出现梦中温暖安慰我
即使一秒钟也难承受

我多恨自己轻易的放开手
以为能承受还能从容不迫
坚强不是我想要的解脱
假装能好好过

害怕察觉你分心的眼
不想再争辩你说的谎言
是时候就放手谁能够

我多恨自己就这样让你走
以为很洒脱以为这是温柔
却忘了你和我一样的脆弱一样的难过

多希望自己就这样松开手
一切很洒脱好好看著你走
坚强该是我给你的自由
还能做什麼

2011-01-01T12:31:00.003+08:00

10 Favourite Songs of 2010

蔡依林美人計

鄭秀文信者得爱

田馥甄寂寞寂寞就好

Katy Perry - Teenage Dream

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

Rihanna - Only Girl (In The World)

何维健当我知道你们相爱

周杰倫说了再见

王力宏柴米油鹽醬醋茶

鄭秀文不要驚動愛情

2010-12-27T00:34:00.003+08:00

Growing Up
Growing up is a process, it takes time and effort. Through time and life experiences a person moulds himself into another person. Growing up involves pain and heartaches too. It's not an easy process but i believe these process are neccessary and sometimes they are able to help mould your character.

Today i had the urge to make a change, to take the first step of this growing up process to become the man i wanted to be. Talk is cheap, i've been thinking about this since my overseas trip. Everytime we want to achieve something, we say it out as a resolution so that everyone knows and then we forget it the next day. So i decided not to say it out this time. But just to use this post as a reminder and encouragement that the road may not seem easy, but when i know the destination, i know to always look ahead over the mess infront of me :)

2010-12-02T23:51:00.001+08:00

Can't Wait 'Til Christmas

Don't make me wait until Christmas
Jokingly, time passes by, oh~
On days without anything to do, i want to be just beside you
I'm already, ahh, loving you

What do you think about on a long winter?
When spring comes, everyone is preparing for a journey
Our season is coming very soon

Don't make me wait until Christmas
The whole town is falling in love with you
Don't put up a cool act in front of me
I'm already, ahh, loving you

ahh~

The white snow enfolds the mountain
Just like crossing over, we often close our wings
Two of us alone on Christmas Eve

Everytime we meet, the distance between us shrinks
Our hearts pass each other by little by little
More than any promises, i want to hear your feelings right now

ahh~

Don't make me wait until Christmas
Why do people chase after tomorrow
It's alright to just treasure the most important people

ahh~

I'm already, ahh loving you

2010-11-15T00:38:00.000+08:00

安静了

2010-11-13T08:10:00.002+08:00

Joel X You Tiao

While frying youtiao every saturday morning, i'll think about things. This morning, while i was frying youtiao, I thought about life. Frying youtiao is just like life. We'll never know what we will get everytime. Sometimes the youtiao stick together too closely, sometimes the youtiao breaks apart. No matter how well i try to turn them, i can't really control how they'll look like in the end. This is just like life, throwing at us different challenges everyday. No matter how we try to deal with it or make decisions, we'll never be able to guess what the outcome would be like.

But while frying youtiao this morning, i learnt that no matter what how the youtiao turns out in the end, i have to learn to control my emotions. Sometimes i get very frustrated how come things don't turn out my way, just like how the youtiao don't look nice and delicious. But thinking back, i had already done my best. Even if i really did made a wrong move, or maybe it was just how things turn out, i should not let it affect my feelings. i do hope i can learn from this, and not let nitty gritty things in life affect me :)

2010-11-04T17:45:00.004+08:00

The Funny, The Serious and The Ugly

Due Date
I had very high expectations for the show as this was the director and team behind last year's surprise comedy hit, The Hangover. Another reason is because of Robert Downey Jr. There is so much likability factor to this movie that even though it fails to entertain me as much as I hope it did, it thought this was not a bad movie overall.

Credits have to go to Robert Downey Jr as he was the only interesting thing to watch in the first half of the show. There wasn't much to laugh about in the beginning and it was all down to Downey's acting to sustain the movie. The pace only picked up in the middle after they were on the road for quite a bit. You probably would be able to understand this movie and the jokes better if you were american.

Unstoppable
This is a very serious, true-story drama about a runaway train. It is kind of difficult for me to understand how this works because we don't have trains in Singapore (at least i've never seen any!) but basically this fast moving train is very dangerous. So 2 man went on another train and tried to be hero and save this runaway train from derailing in highly populated towns.

There was a side story line about how Chris Pine was not allowed to see his wife and kids because he lets his jealousy get to the better of him and did things which he shouldn't. Guess humans all have some form of jealousy in them. Good thing for him though, his wife forgave him after his heroic deed :)

The Social Network
This movie lost me in the beginning. I really am a very very lousy person with regards to technological stuff and computers...etc. I just couldn't catch what the guy was talking about with his girlfriend in the beginning. But anyway, i think facebook was founded because of this girl?? The stupid things a person would do for someone he likes.

This movie also shows the ugly side of humanity because besides telling the stories of how facebook was set up, it is also telling the story about 2 lawsuits that came together with the rise of facebook. The first lawsuit was about IP rights, but the second was against a co-founder of facebook. It is kind of ugly how things turn out. All you need is some people giving their opinion and people could just turn against their best friends. The sad truth about life? I guess soo, the cruel truth about life :(

2010-11-02T10:29:00.002+08:00

Sweet November
In a blink of an eye it's already November. There is only the last 2 months left in 2010. In the 1o short months of 2010, i went through so much in life i felt like i could have lived 2 lifetimes. I learnt alot, both in school and out of school. I learnt alot in life and about life. Everyday is a lesson, my teachers are the people around me. Met great people, met bad people, met people who built me up, met people who tore me down. But at the end of the day, the scenario is still the same as last year, there is just me, alone, facing the challenges life throws at me.

2010-10-27T18:06:00.004+08:00

It's gonna be a Hot Hot November
Though there wasn't much exciting new releases in October, November is set to burn holes in my pocket with much anticipated releases from some of the hottest artist in the industries. Time to save up!!!

Jolin - TAKE 2 MYSELF-Dance with Me(奢華慶功影音4D版2CD＋2DVD)
Jolin's Myself album was released back in August and this second edition includes 6 music videos, 6 remixes of her songs, a behind the scene DVD as well as pictorial booklet with 6 brand new looks. Hmmm, 666? No wonder she's dressed up in a full black devilish costume here on the front cover.
Released: Early November

Rihanna - LOUD
Rihanna is heating things up with her new hair colour. So fun, so happy, so LOUD. With lead single "Only Girl (In the World)" climbing up the charts and a follow-up to my favourite song, "Love The Way You Lie (Part 2)". This party album is one that we should not miss. Rihanna never misses with dance tracks ;)
Released: 10th November

Toy Story 1-3 Boxset
My favourite cartoon became the highest grossing cartoon of all time. Toy Story by Pixar is a brand by itself and it guarantees to be both enjoyable and touching at the same time. You have to collect all 3 DVD to make a set and take it out once in a while for a 3-in-1 Toy Story Party!!!
Released: Mid November

P!nk - Greatest Hits... So Far!!!
Love her. Hate her. P!nk is one of the artist constantly pushing boundaries with each release. Not only does she have enough hits to release a Greatest Hits album, her new song "Raise Your Glass" is rocketting up charts everywhere. Come on all underdogs, you will be able to relate to her song :)
Released: 16th November

Utada Hikaru - Single Collection Vol. 2
After her hiatus from Japan music scene for 2 years, Utada Hikaru is back with her second Greatest Hits album. Her first Greatest Hits albums was the best selling album of the year despite not containing any new material. This time round, she prepared 5 new songs for her eagerly waiting japanese fans. I always love Utada's japanese music more than her english songs, so this is another must get before she goes into hiatus again next year!
Released: 24th November

2010-10-24T15:02:00.004+08:00

Interview with Nike City 10K Run ParticipantReporter: I heard you almost couldn't make it for the run this morning..
Joel: Yes, i set the wrong alarm and woke up close to 7am this morning. Had to rush out and cab down to Esplanade to make it for the second flag off. Luckily the taxi driver drove very fast when he knew that i was rushing for the flag off and got me to place in time.

Reporter: So how do you find the running route of this event?
Joel: We ran from the floating platform to the F1 pit building and Singapore Flyer before turning into Nicoll Highway and Kallang area. From there we made a turn back to the floating platform once again and ended the race there.

Reporter: Nike specially set up 4 stages along the running route this year, playing music and encouraging the runner. Did you enjoy it?
Joel: The music was good and it was creative to think up of 4 different stages with different themes. I think the organisers put in alot of effort at each stage such that even the people on stage are dressed in the theme. But it is also a bit of a waste since we just run past each stage and don't even get to listen to one full song. In a way, it was kind of meaningless placing those stage too.

Reporter: The finisher item is quite different this time round too..
Joel: This is my first time participating in these kind of runs so i'm not too sure what the finisher gets. But this time the toy of the 4 different themes are quite special i guess. I don't really like the one i got though.

Reporter: Did you go for the carnival after the run?
Joel: I did walk around the carnival after the run. There were fruits station, drinks stations, merchandise stations and a massage station. I was rather surprise seeing the massage station, but too bad the queue was so long i really couldn't wait there for my turn.

Reporter: Overall, did you enjoy your sunday morning here at the Nike Run?
Joel: As i said, this is my first time so i didn't really know what to expect. But i had a good run and i thought the experience was good. It would have been better if i had a bunch of friends running with me. But at least i've friends running and we get to eat breakfast after that, so i've got no complains.

2010-10-20T01:34:00.002+08:00

Only One
Can you make me feel like i'm the only one in this world too?

Only Girl (In the World) - Rihanna

La la la la
La la la la
La la la la

I want you to love me, like I’m a hot pie
Keep thinkin’ of me, doin’ what you like
So boy forget about the world cuz it’s gon’ be me and you tonight
I wanna make your bed for ya, then imma make you swallow your pride

Want you to make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world
Like I’m the only one that you’ll ever love
Like I’m the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world…
Like I’m the only one that’s in command
Cuz I’m the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man

Want you to make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world
Like I’m the only one that you’ll ever love
Like I’m the only one who knows your heart
Only one…

Want you to take me like a thief in the night
Hold me like a pillow, make me feel right
Baby I’ll tell you all my secrets that I’m keepin’, you can come inside
And when you enter, you ain’t leavin’, be my prisoner for the night

Want you to make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world
Like I’m the only one that you’ll ever love
Like I’m the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world…
Like I’m the only one that’s in command
Cuz I’m the only one who understands, like I’m the only one who knows your heart, only one…

Take me for a ride
Oh baby, take me high
Let me make you first
Oh make it last all night

Take me for a ride
Oh baby, take me high
Let me make you first
Make it last all night

Want you to make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world
Like I’m the only one that you’ll ever love
Like I’m the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world…
Like I’m the only one that’s in command
Cuz I’m the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man
Only girl in the world…
Girl in the world…
Only girl in the world…
Girl in the world…

2010-10-19T13:12:00.000+08:00

GV Movie Club 3rd Anniversary - Pirahna 3D
I participated in the Pirahna Hunk competition hoping to get free movie tickets and more. In the end i got to get to go O'Neill to shop for sponsored top and beach shorts. They even threw in a free pair of flip flops (Nice!).

I was a bit nervous on the day itself because i was expecting to take off my shirt, hahaha. But luckily in the end, the organisers did not ask us to do that, so i was really relieved. The only problem came when we were to go on stage to get our photo shoots as well as group shots. Obviously i did not know how to pose and hence made a fool out of myself.

Pic 1: me standing like a piece of log when the 2 other girls are already in their picture perfect pose.
pic 2: where should i look? oh no.. (camera man: make a pose, make a pose) *look up* oops, the camera man was talking to me.
pic 3: my best pose, LOL.
Thanks to my friends who came down that day, Mel, Van, Angie and Han Loong.

we had to go up stage and answer some questions the MC asked. then the audiences were asked to stick stickers on who they think should be the beach boy ~
my best beach boy look. grrrr ~

2010-10-17T00:29:00.003+08:00

Genuinely Happy

I was just trying to change a new display picture this afternoon and a thought came to my mind. I want to put a picture where i am happy, really really very happy, genuinely happy. I looked up and down the picture folders all the way from recent albums to past albums hoping to find the perfect picture to show me in my happiest moment. After looking back more than half a year, i finally came to my birthday album. This year's birthday is made up of a series of celebration. And as far as i remember, it was one of the happiest period in my life this year.

Of course the most memorable day had to be on my actual birthday itself. I didn't do anything extraordinary. I didn't get very expensive gifts. But i had one of the best days in my life. And i can say from the bottom of my heart. All the smiles that day are genuine and beautiful. Because on that day, i was genuinely happy.

2010-10-11T22:17:00.002+08:00

i don't want the ordinary
i dun like a normal ordinary life. i like something larger than life. i want to feel the flood of emotions pressing against me. trying to knock me off my feet. trying to drown me and force me to struggle just to catch a breath. that is one of the reasons why i love shows that are drama to the extreme. climatic during every episode. life is too short to waste on the same old boring things.

巾幗梟雄 is one of the shows that is able to do that and i am really looking forward to the new installation, 巾幗梟雄之義海豪情 coming out next week. it feels really shiok to see people living their life to their fullest for their family, for their loved ones for their dreams, for their country. haha, makes me feel hot blooded everytime i watch.

can you come like the winds? can you blow me off my feet? blast me out of the outer space? i believe someday someone would.

2010-10-10T01:03:00.000+08:00

Do You Know What You Want?
Do you know what you want? Do you know what you want to achieve in your life? Do you know what you look for in your partners? Do you know what career you want to pursue? Do you know what dreams you want to accomplish?

People have so many questions and doubts in life. When I see someone with clear goals and ambitions, I admire them alot. But then I started questioning. Don't they have to go through the same struggles I did? Don't they still have doubts once in a while? I believe they do no matter how absolute they portray themselves. This is the same for everyone. And i guess if we are able to admit that we do not know what we want for ourselves, at least we get to try and figure it out.

The worse is those who think they know what they want when they really have no clue.

2010-10-09T21:55:00.004+08:00

莫文蔚 - 執子之手
This is a new song i heard this morning on the way home back from my dad's stall. It has a simple melody and lyrics that just tugged at my heartstrings. No matter when i was listening to it this morning or right now. The feeling is still the same. I guess we can all identify to the chorus of the song.

Often, we look back and think back, and the question of "What if" would pop up. Do we regret the decision we took? Or are we finally at peace with ourselves. I believe that even if we finally come to peace with reality, there will still be some doubts, or rather, i'd call it space for imagination. On what if we did not make a certain particular decision. Below is the song to share with all of you out there on this quiet saturday night :)

当时的音乐多热闹我们多招摇
说不完的玩笑
是谁把音乐关掉
只剩下心在跳
有没有被你听到
鼓点乱敲

是不是时机刚好夜色温柔
思念在暗处怂恿
谁也阻止不了恋爱自由
一无所有也不贫穷

伤口要慢慢治疗时间是良药
一切都过期无效
宁静的夜多难熬回忆是水草
经过了依然缠绕缠绕

是不是不该计较谁对谁错
是爱先落荒而逃
曾经爱你多少都不重要
留着回忆与我偕老

如果当时紧紧拥抱
是不是结局就不会这么潦草
如果能重新来过我会不会
牵你的手与你偕老
与你偕老

2010-09-27T10:33:00.002+08:00

LostI lost my game plan in life once again. Not that i usually have one, haha, but i can't find the goal to work towards anymore. I hate not knowing what to do, but i hate not knowing where to start even more. When i look at my life through this recess week that just past, i saw how messed up it is. I saw how much i hate the life i'm living now. I saw how much potential my life holds but i'm not living it up to the fullest. Everyday i'm just wasting my time, letting seconds and minutes and hours and days pass me by as though i've got forever to live and nothing to do. I don't know if people usually feel this way? But i guess most people do.

I've been focusing on the wrong things in my life. I've been neglecting the important people in my life. I've even been neglecting myself in my own life. I let myself down :(

The hardest part in picking up is the first step. At least the mid semester break allowed me to find out something went wrong and there needs to be a change fast. I still have half a semester to salvage my school work. And a few months to salvage my work work. I hope by picking up these bits and pieces of my life, my life would be complete again. I hope i can force myself to take the first few steps..

2010-09-17T00:56:00.002+08:00

寂寞寂寞就好
Everyone will probably go through a lonely phrase in their lives. Sometimes it is due to the departure of a loved one. Sometimes it is due to the conclusion of a job. Sometimes it is due to a broken relationship. At this low point in our lives, how we deal with loneliness is actually quite important. This song by Hebe is talking about how we can deal with loneliness by ourselves. Enjoy :)

還是原來那個我不過流掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾遲早我會還這張臉一堆笑容
不算什麼愛錯就愛錯
早點認錯早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了想到快瘋掉
死不了就還好
我寂寞寂寞就好你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了賴著不放掉
人本來就寂寞的借來的都該還掉
我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你是我自己做夢你有改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用每個人有每個人的業障因果
會有什麼什麼都沒有
早點看破才看得見以後

我寂寞寂寞就好這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了想到快瘋掉
死不了就還好
我寂寞寂寞就好你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了賴著不放掉
人本來就寂寞的我總會把你戒掉

2010-09-14T00:23:00.000+08:00

手中线
Fell in love with this song after watching the movie 割爱。
Conincidentally this is the second song i'm covering by 龔芝怡.
GO support Zoe!!

2010-09-10T08:00:00.002+08:00

Cherish your loved ones

I think one of the worse things that could happen to a person in life is to witness the dying of a loved one. Being in a small church since young, i've witness a few deaths of church members whom i've known for many years. None of it is as scary as dying by cancer. Cancer not only kills a person. It tortures the ill and everyone around him/her.

I got a chance to catch Zoe Tay's latest movie Love Cuts which tells the story about a woman who found out that she had 4th stage breast cancer. I'm really impressed with her character not only because she was such a good and nice person (overly nice actually) but because of her strength and determination when facing her own illness. It seems as though everyone around her are more sad to hear the news than herself. But it is also through this change in her live that affected the lives of her family. It brought the family together. It made the children grow up. It made the husband remember what a good wife he had and made the children cherish every single time spent with their mother.

But do we really need a crisis to occur before we learn all that? Actually everyday in out life is a gift. We never know when this gift would be taken away. And by the time it is taken away, everything would have been too late and we would regret not cherishing the ones around us, not spending more time with them, not helping them more, not making them smile. Let's all learn to love and cherish the friends and family around us today :) just love, no regrets!

2010-09-07T23:31:00.002+08:00

Will you go the Distance with me?

I caught the movie Going the Distance which is a story about long distance relationship. I kinda like this movie and was in fact rather touched at some parts of the story because i know how difficult it is to maintain a long distance relationship. Sometimes it takes more than just feelings and like and love to make a relationship last. It takes commitment, alot of commitment in fact together with trust, money and tolerance.

Being so far away from someone means money to contact that person, through phone, sms, or even emails. It also means loneliness when you have to go out alone and seeing other couples together. And it also means believing that your partner is staying faithful to you despite all the temptations and loneliness that he/she goes through. Of course the last point also applies to yourself. Are you able to withstand all the temptations and loneliness that the long distance relationship brings?

I still do believe that LDR is feasible. It is difficult but then it also makes the relationshp all the more worthy and special. Of course LDR is not feasible long-term, but if 2 persons can put up with LDR for sometime and actually still stay together, i think they are ready to make even greater plans to their lives :)

2010-09-05T01:51:00.002+08:00

Studying
I'm finally starting to pick up on my readings again after the support of a few friends over the horrible past week. It feels good to be in control of this important aspect of my life as it really means to being at peace with myself. I can only study when my mind is at peace, when my heart is not racing and when my head is quiet and clear. When i'm caught up with all sorts of thoughts and worries, my head just would not function and i just cannot sit down properly and read my notes.

Thankfully after being 'forced' to study yesterday by Reef, i finally got some momentum and did my own reading today for a couple of hours. And there's also other friends like Marcus who have been really supportive and helpful in motivating me to read more. Hope i will continue this reading habit tmr!! GOodnights everyone :)

2010-09-03T23:09:00.002+08:00

I'm not lazy i'm just a little unwell
Recently, i seem to have became lazy. I can't be bothered much about my work or studies. To everyone who asked me, i would say that i have a slack schedule and that i'm doing fine at work. But actually, i don't even know what i am doing everyday with my life. I'm not a lazy person by nature and i'm not a lazy person now either. If given a choice, i would not choose to go home and sleep everyday away. In fact, i quite hate my life at this moment because i know there is so much that i want to accomplish but am not doing so now.

It's just that recently, i feel unwell. I can't pin point exactly where i am not feeling well, but my whole body seems to be rather depressed. I lost all motivation to go on everyday. There is nothing to look forward to anymore. I wish there was someone to motivate me and push me forward again, to make me see what i am doing to my life everyday. But i know that is near impossible and the more feasible option would be to motivate myself. I am trying with all means but till now, i guess things are not really looking bright. I gotta thank Reef for forcing me to study a bit today, even though it was just a simple few hours, i think it was a good start :)

Hope life picks up soon. Or i would be in serious trouble with all the backlog in school and work.

2010-08-31T00:00:00.002+08:00

囍帖街
This is my latest favourite song. I like this version more than the original one as this version sounds sadder. If you read the lyrics, you'll know why i say this song is sad. The lyrics are really well written though, one of the biggest hits in HK 1~2 years back. Enjoy :)

囍帖街

忘掉種過的花重新的出發放棄理想吧
別再看塵封的囍帖你正在要搬家
築得起人應該接受都有日倒下
其實沒有一種安穩快樂永遠也不差

就似這一區曾經稱得上美滿甲天下
但霎眼全街的單位快要住滿烏鴉
好景不會每日常在
天梯不可只往上爬
愛的人沒有一生一世嗎
大概不需要害怕

忘掉愛過的他
當初的囍帖金箔印着那位他
裱起婚紗照那道牆
及一切美麗舊年華明日同步拆下

忘掉有過的家
小餐枱、沙發、雪櫃及兩份紅茶
溫馨的光境不過借出到期拿回嗎
等不到下一代嗎是嗎

忘掉砌過的沙
回憶的堡壘刹那已倒下
面對這墳起的荒土你註定學會瀟灑
階磚不會拒絕磨蝕
窗花不可幽禁落霞
有感情就會一生一世嗎
又再惋惜有用嗎

忘掉愛過的他
當初的囍帖金箔印着那位他
裱起婚紗照那道牆
及一切美麗舊年華明日同步拆下

忘掉有過的家
小餐枱、沙發、雪櫃及兩份紅茶
溫馨的光境不過借出到期拿回嗎
終須會時辰到別怕
請放下手裡那鎖匙好嗎

2010-08-28T07:19:00.003+08:00

Singapore Youth Olympic Games
The Singapore Youth Olympic Games 2010 is finally over. The past 2 weeks was quite an experience, having to report at Marina Promenade from 3pm to 10pm daily for 6 days in a week. This started off as a suicidal thought, pushing my body to the limits, knowing that I have to handle both work and study at the same time together with the grueling schedule. I wanted to know how far my body is able to be pushed, i wanted to see where my limit lies. The first few days were the worst since there were more people and i didn't really know what my role was. Things only got better till the end when everyone knew what they had to do and when we were less stressed up trying to get people to watch the concert and started to enjoy the concerts for ourselves.

Through these few days, not only did i get an experience to deal with many foreign visitors as well as local audience, i also get to see many concerts by local and foreign artists. They greatly inspired me, ignited my passion to perform :) I got my chance to play mascot one of the days. It's really very hot in the suit and my whole tee was soaked by the time i took the costume off. But it is a good excuse to act cute and play silly inside Lyo, lol, since he was such a fun character :)

Besides the numerous concerts, another highlight was the numerous fireworks display that i got to enjoy. I don't remember seeing so many fireworks in such a short span of 2 weeks. There was 2 performance everyday during the weekends and also even more spectacular displays during the opening and closing ceremony. Watching the fireworks made me happy, but then watching it alone seems to make me feel as though something was missing. Things would have been better if there was a special someone watching such wonderful fireworks display wouldn't it? But luckily i was not alone during these few days at the City Celebration site.

I made quite a few friends from the volunteers helping out together with me. Most of them are from one of the sponsoring company and others are students like me. I feel really blessed to have them volunteer with me otherwise i would be so lonely since i was the only one here from NUS. They are really nice people and took the initiative to talk to me and make friends with me. I cannot imagine how life would be if not for them accompanying me through 6 hours everyday and going home/ MBS/ YOV together. Hope that even after the YOG, we could still meet up and go MBS walk walk eat eat, haha. You rock guys!!

2010-08-22T01:26:00.002+08:00

One Last Thing

you said i only cared about myself.
only do things for myself.
now i just hope i can.
do this one last thing for you.
to let you go.
and wish you find your happiness soon.
forgive me for crying one last time.
i will be fine come tomorrow sunrise.
hugs.

2010-08-21T08:06:00.002+08:00

无言以对

窗外天亮了房里还是有点黑
一整夜阖着双眼失眠有点累
转过身我拥抱着双人床孤单的棉被
清晨这一刻谁陪你喝咖啡
爱情璀璨后粉碎像流星划过后下坠
你说我们是同类你缺少的我无法给

你把爱作废借口多刺耳迂回
there is nothing left to say
你沉默流泪是不是无言以对
there is nothing left to say
就算心碎就算崩溃
就算难过那么深邃
别给我安慰那只是美丽的虚伪
there is nothing left to say

说错对比是非
究竟还是无路可退
说不恨你那是自己口是心非
无所谓无所谓
回忆却像只贴身鬼魅
无处躲多狼狈

你把爱作废借口多刺耳迂回
there is nothing left to say
你沉默流泪是不是无言以对
there is nothing left to say
就算心碎就算崩溃
就算难过那么深邃
别给我安慰那只是美丽的虚伪
there is nothing left to say

2010-08-20T00:59:00.003+08:00

對有些人而言　　有時
能遇見一個對的人　過著簡單平凡的一生　是最難得的幸福

把握當下　珍惜彼此
在柴米油鹽醬醋茶裡蘊釀著永恆的愛
品嚐生命中的每一份感動、每一份親情、每一段友誼
每一次愛情、每一次得到
每一次窩心的溫暖、每一次觸目所及的美好…
這就是幸福

2010-08-16T00:40:00.004+08:00

Water LineThrough the many days of helping out at the City Celebration @ Marina Bay, i've only took notice of one local singer and that is Jonathan Chan. I was attracted to his song Water Line, a simple guitar accompanied song which he introduced, "There is always arguments in a relationship, if a relationship don't have any argument, it probably isn't a real relationship." I couldn't agree more! It is through all these arguments, these difficult times that you see what the other person means to you and if you still want to continue. And when you meet the right person, the answer will always be "yes" despite all the times you want to call it quits and let go.

Water Line (lyrics)

It wasn't like the first time
When i first turned to look at you
It's more like all the things that we've been doing
And all that we've been through

So we go on with our lives now
And we move on in this place
I don't know anything that bugs me more
Than my constant need for grace

Cos you can take it back and you can take it home
And if you bring it back well i'll leave it alone
And you can take me back to the place i was before
I guess i will be knocking on your door
I guess i will be knocking on your door

It wasn't like the last time
When i first turned to you
You picked it up and brushed it down
And then you saw it through

So we go on with our lives now
And we think about the words
Remember now children always listen to
But i seldom really heard

You can take me back and you can take me home
And if you bring me back well i'll leave it alone
If you can't take me back to the place i was before
I guess i won't be knocking on your door
I guess i won't be knocking on your door

You can take me back and you can take me home
And if you bring me back well i'll leave it alone
And you can take me back to the place i was before
I guess i will be knocking on your door
I guess i will be knocking on your door
I guess i will be knocking on your door

2010-08-13T13:21:00.001+08:00

This is a one take recording of one of my favourite songs. The End of the World by the Carpenters. Please forgive the flaws you see in this video (because there are many!) and just feel the emotions that i'm trying to convey through the song. Hope you like it as much as i enjoyed recording it. Love, Joel.

2010-08-13T09:26:00.002+08:00

The End Of The World

Why does the sun go on shining?
Why does the sea rush to shore?
Don't they know it's the end of the world,
`cause you don't love me anymore?

Why do the birds go on singing?
Why do the stars glow above?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when I lost your love.

I wake up in the morning and I wonder why ev'rything's the same as it was.
I can't understand, no I can't understand, how life goes on the way it does!

Why does my heart go on beating?
Why do these eyes of mine cry?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when you said good-bye.

2010-08-08T01:39:00.003+08:00

December Rain
I realised i'm becoming more and more skeptical about love. December Rain should have been a script i would love, surrounding my favourite topics like love, dreams and regrets. But after watching the musical, i found myself doubting the script.

The first biggest problem was how the 2 leads actually feel in love, it was love at first sight. But how can 2 persons just fall in love after one look and actually believed it was true love and wanted to risk everything to run off together just so that the guy can fulfil his dreams? I realise that i don't believe in love at first sight anymore. There are always so many circumstances a person would think of before even getting into a relationship now. Think about the future, think about the circumstances, think about the money, think about the suitability. Think and think and think.

Then what was even more surreal was that both the leads loved each other so deeply they never find another person in their life even though they did not get to meet again for the next 30 years. Yea, right. Haha, if only there was such a person in this world, this world would be a happier place with less complicated love issues.

But i'm hoping someone would come prove me wrong though, cos deep in my heart, i know i still yearn for these magical fairy tale love. Someone somewhere come and pick me up please :)

2010-08-06T13:39:00.002+08:00

其实，我有一个小小愿望。
那就是能简简单单跟你过完下半生。让这世界成为你，我，两个人的荒岛。

小时候你想要什么
我要一台大大蓝色的飞机
带我环游世界到地球每一个角落
在蓝天白云中穿梭

而长大以后我想要什么
我要一台小小红色答录机
和你一起录下喂我们现在不在家
蓝色变成红色因为你

柴米油盐酱醋茶
一点一滴都是幸福在发芽
月儿弯弯爱的傻
有了你什么都不差

给你快乐无论白天黑夜
握紧双手就算刮风下雨
我就是要你要你待在我身边
保护你直到永远

柴米油盐酱醋茶
一点一滴都是幸福在发芽
月儿弯弯爱的傻
有了你什么都不差

月儿弯弯爱的傻
没有一个理由活的那么复杂
有了你什么都不差

2010-08-01T00:16:00.000+08:00

gone to Hong Kong.

2010-07-31T20:39:00.005+08:00

Reality > Dreams
Sitting alone in the car this morning on my way back from dad's stall, i ponder on my dreams and purpose in life. I realise that even though i love to dream, i no longer believe in dreams. I like dreams just because they are the perfect situtations, they are out-of-this-world and impossible to reach. I enjoy dreaming because reality is not as perfect. I enjoy dreaming because for that short period of time, i can forget the world that i'm living in and imagine myself somewhere else where things go my way. But in my mind, i clearly know these are not reality and i do not long for them.

I like to use movies as a metaphor for dreams. I love movies because for that short hour or two, i am brought out of my own world and put in this fantasy world built up by the director, the actors, the producer... etc. As much as i enjoy the movies, i know that they are fictitious and would never fall too deep into it.

It's not that i've never believed in dreams, but i guess reality forced me to grow up too quickly. After many times of hope and subsequent heartache, my heart simply does not believe in perfect situations happening in my life anymore. But this also made me more aware and adaptable to the problems and obstacles that litter all over my life. Throw me all sorts of rubbish and you'll see i'm no longer surprised anymore. It's like i'm already anticipating it all the time. LOL.

But if you think i'm a pessimistic person, you're wrong! haha, just because i am prepared for the worse situation doesn't mean that i always think bad things will happen to me. i only believe things when they happen :)

2010-07-29T00:28:00.005+08:00

Inception
I finally caught the show after much delay and i have to admit it is one of the most interesting show i've watched this year. Most of all it sets me thinking about dreams, about memories, about truth, about thoughts and about redemption. I am not a dreamy person so i don't have much issues regarding dreams.

But I realise after watching this movie that i am a person trapped and locked up by my past memories. I am a very sentimental person who is also highly emotional. I remember alot of things that happened to me in the past and would always bring it up again to compare it with the present. In a way, memories are similar to dreams in that both are no longer real at present times. In the same way where there is no point being obsessed in a dream that is not real, there is no point dwelling in the past which is also no longer what things are now.

I guess different people who watched the show would have different thoughts after coming out of the theatre, i wonder- what are yours?

2010-07-27T00:09:00.002+08:00

A guy's dream.
Whoa, just listened to another of Jolin's song and i feel in love. This cute little song just make me want to fall so deeply in love with her. Ignoring the fact that Jolin is 30 years old (yes, 7 years older!), she sounds like she's 23 and she sounds like she is singing to ME :) haha. Believe me, the lyrics is what a guy would want a girl to sing to him. And when that someone is as cute and as sexy as Jolin, this dream is to die for, LOL. If you don't believe Jolin can be both cute and sexy, just look below for a few sexy shots taken from her new music video and then listen to the new song i'm talking about with the lyrics, enjoy, start dreaming :)

揭曉應該是愛情在半路拋錨
所以丘比特遲到
還好我們在兜過了許多彎角
走進了同一座城堡你說如果早遇到多好
多幾分幾秒你都要我說那就加倍對我好
你點著頭給我肯定的微笑

愛情即時生效下一秒
幸福就算冰山一角很難找
你是帶我抵達的路標
就算天涯海角誓言即時生效對我好
沿途偶爾遇到風暴讓我靠
記得要把我的手抓牢
答應我不輕易放掉

愛情和時間賽跑我們要一起到老
你所為我在肩上披的那件外套
代表你一輩子給我的專屬依靠
溫柔得讓我總忍不住想炫耀

愛情即時生效下一秒
幸福就算冰山一角很難找
你是帶我抵達的路標
就算天涯海角誓言即時生效對我好
沿途偶爾遇到風暴讓我靠
記得要把我的手抓牢
你不會輕易的放掉

2010-07-26T10:08:00.002+08:00

Things to look forward to in August

1. Kit Chan's comeback musical- December Rains 雨季

Can't wait to finally hear/ see Kit Chan performing again. One thing's for sure, this girl can sing and won't disappoint :) and finally can get my hands on the soundtrack as well.

2. Jolin new album- Myself

Finally after a year and a half, jolin is back with a brand new album :)) her first dance single is a huge improvement from all her previous dance track. Produced by one of the hottest British producers, ‘美人计’ is bringing her 舞娘 status to a new height.

2010-07-22T15:36:00.002+08:00

If I were your boy

If I were your boy
I know I would understand
How it feels to love you girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to you
So you’ll never get hurt
When you are all I ever wanted
I can’t take you for granted
And baby you’d be safe in my arms

If I were your boy

2010-07-21T07:23:00.003+08:00

Time Machine
I'm back from reservist!! 5 days of reservist made me feel as though i've entered a time machine, bringing me back 2 years to my 41sar days. Met the same group of people whom i've been living with for more than a year. It's just fantastic to see everyone again :) I like my army days- no stress from work, no stress from school, no headache thinking about things, just plain pure training and sweat. But then all things come to an end and fortunately/ unfortunately, we can train together again next year, haha.

Of course, nothing can deny that fact that 2 years have past since we all parted ways. After i went back and met up with these close group of friends, they started telling me that i have changed. But this will be a post in itself so till then, have a nice day :)

2010-07-20T10:07:00.000+08:00

Love is Gone.
Recently, i participated in the Law Clinic offer as a new module in school. This is an interesting module as i get to deal with real cases in court and get to assist my professor all the way from the beginning of a case right till the end. There was alot of initiative involved as compared to the cases i get at internships because most of the time, i am the one dealing with the case and keeping records of what is going on. In fact, i was supposed to brief the lawyer/ professor on what is going on with the case when there are documents to be submitted or when there is a hearing.

You must be thinking that what you have read till now have nothing to do with the title of this post, lol. But i used this particular title because of the cases i am dealing with. Yes, all the cases that i am dealing with are divorce cases- nasty divorce cases. It was quite interesting in the beginning when i got my first case. I've dealt with handicapped person, AIDS patient, adultery couples, mothers who abandoned their family for another guy, couples who never stay long enough together to move into their new homes. It's quite sad sometimes reading through their files. I believe people only get married when they love one another, but what happened that led to a divorce? How did 2 person who once loved each other so much end up fighting in court over a house? or money? It's kind of depressing if a person have to deal with too many of these cases. I wonder if such a person will ever appreciate marriage or even love anymore.

Hence, i have come to a decision not to be a family lawyer or deal with divorce cases after i start practice. I want to believe that there is true, long-lasting love in this world :)

2010-07-19T18:27:00.002+08:00

Understand
by: Christina Aguilera

I used to think that happiness could only be something
That happened to somebody else
Everybody believed, everybody but me, yeah yeah
And I've been hurt so many times before,
That my hope was dying, so sick of trying
Everybody could see, everybody but me, yeah yeah
But then you came into my life, you opened up my softer side
And now I can see into your eyes
And suddenly, I realize.

I made you think, you don't understand
All the times you didn't understand,
Why you couldn't just be my man.
I made you think, you don't understand
There were many walls you had to climb,
If you really wanted to be mine.
I made you think, you don't understand
After all the hoops I put you through,
Now I see that I'm in love with you

Now, I hope you finally understand.

So many tears I've had to cry,
But you had many more of your own you had to try
But you stuck it out and you're here with me now, yeah yeah
And rememberin' the days I pushed away your love,
You called my bluff and you still stayed around,
Yeah you figured me out
Said, you got me down
And there's no way to lie to you, you know me better than I do

Baby, ooh, you see me through,
I'd be no good without you.

I made you think, you don't understand
All the times you didn't understand,
Why you just couldn't be my man
I made you think, you don't understand
There were many walls you had to climb (yeah)
If you really wanted to be mine (ooh)
I made you think, you don't understand
After all the hoops I put you through (through)
Now I see that I'm in love with you

Now, I hope you finally understand

Oh.

Baby, won't you listen now
Can't you see just what I'm talking about?
Said baby won't you listen now
Can't you see just what I'm talking about?

Time went on, and I was wrong
To keep my distance for so long.
So afraid, you wouldn't stay
But you never turned away

Always right by my side
You're forever in my life
Don't you go
'Cause now I know
That in you I found a home.

Now I can see into your eyes
Suddenly, I realize.

I made you think, you don't understand
All the times you didn't understand
Why you just couldn't be my man
I made you think, you don't understand
There were many walls you had to climb,
If you really wanted to be mine
I made you think, you don't understand
After all the hoops I put you through
Now I see I'm in love with you.

Now, I hope you finally understand.

2010-07-10T22:59:00.002+08:00

Going back.
I'm finally going back to the jungle after 2 and a half years. I'm feeling excited to be staying in with my old friends once again for the next one week. It's amazing how fast time flies. It surely didn't feel like 2 years ago when i was still in camp. But before I can even think of the time I am going to spend for in-camp training (ICT) this time, I need to worry about the stupid packing list. I really regret not packing my items well before i threw all of them into the storeroom. I'm sure all guys will understand how relieved they felt when they finally ORD. We basically just want to get rid of all army-related items as soon as possible. This came back to haunt me big time now when i realise i cannot find alot of the items i actually need to bring back to camp. Haha, but I guess this is only a small problem, troublesome no doubt but I'm not going to let this small matter affect me :D

2010-07-08T16:59:00.001+08:00

人夫，终极剖白

After reading the recent issue of i-weekly, I felt very touched by the interview done with Tay Ping Hui. I always loved to listen to other people's life experience, their love stories. We only have one lifetime and there are so many things that we may never get to experience. Through listening to other's experience and sharing, I get to imagine and get a feel of what it is like to be them...

结婚，是人生大喜事。
能默默与重要的人分享就很满足。
因为，幸福无需与谁人说。

Happiness between 2 person really doesn't require the whole world to know. It doesn't bother the rest of the world anyway. Just the 2 persons involved. Even though sometimes i do feel that being able to share your joy with the rest of the world is a great feeling, I guess sometimes the circumstances may not really be favourable to do so. And instead being negative and doubting, it would be better for the relationship if both parties just treasure each other in their hearts. What more could you ask for than being the most important person in each other's hearts?

"以前的我，可能没这么想结婚，我爱自由，是独来独往的人，不怎么喜欢向人交待我要做什么事，做过什么事，但现在会明白接下来的生活，有一个人会和你一起去决定。"

I think my mindset towards dating has always been to get married. I am not really interested in a relationship per se, but more so in finding a life partner, someone to live and spend the rest of my life with. Being 23 seems to be too young to think of such matters, but i slowly realise that what I am looking for is more than just someone to spend enjoyable time with. It's also looking for committment and compromise, things that can make a relationship last longer than just a date or infatuation.

"我发现不管怎么努力，原来你是无法改变一个人的，而她让我觉得我们是刚好互补的，很自然就走在一起。不用改变对方，轻松很多。"

Being yourself is very important. When you get too involved, you may want to change or compromise just so to make your relationship longer. But i really don't know if that is the way to deal with differences. Personally, i find that it is impossible to find someone who fits you exactly so well that there would not be differences. But it is through identifying these differences and dealing with it that shows whether a relationship can really work out. In the end, as long as both person are able to solve their problems maturely and in a way that both are able to handle, i guess things are fine :)

"当然有起落，有困难的时候，曾经已经到分手边缘了，但有时候人就是这样，走了一大圈，会

发现最好的还是在身边。"

People who don't know me may not know that i have a taboo with regards to relationships. That word is "breakup". Maybe it is the way i was brought up in the family. Maybe it is my religion. There is no such things as breakup in a real relationship (hence i said i'm more looking for a wife than a girlfriend, lol). I feel that if someone mentions the word "breakup", it spells the end of a relationshop because if it happens once, it will happen twice and so on. Relationship is something you don't give up on unless it is really beyond salvage so to me saying "breakup" is the final straw which I don't believe there will be anymore chances. I don't know if i'll change this impression though, haha, but I think it goes to show how much a person cherish and respect a relationship.

In the interview, i-weekly also showed the lyrics of the song Tay Ping Hui sang to his wife on the wedding day. I loved the lyrics so I went to Youtube to find the song. Here is the song, hope you like it too :) I hope to sing this song on my wedding to my wife too because this is what i hope she meant to me- someone i want to live for, another day, everyday.

Last Night I had a crazy dream
Wish was granted just for me,
It could be for anything
I didn't ask for money, or a mansion in Malibu
I simply wished for one more day with you

One more day, One more time
One more sunset maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again; I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

First thing I'd do is pray for time to crawl
I'd unplug the telephone, and keep the TV off
I'd hold you every second, say a million I Love You's
Thats what I'd do, with one more day with you

2010-07-07T18:16:00.002+08:00

Breakout
It is now confirmed (finally) that Jeanette will take on the role of the ‘Evil Sister’ in the year end drama ‘Breakout 破天网’!

This will be Jeanette’s first breakout (excuse the pun) 破格 role from the usual feel good heroine’s roles (yawn). She will no longer be your typical sweet innocent young thing or long suffering damsel-in-distress… It is the leading evil sister’s role she is extremely excited about playing.

Described to be a poisonous stinging scorpion, an evil Medusa who will not stop to strike fear (and even death) in her opponents – 聪明机灵，却因目睹母亲和男友被杀，精神受创，变得极端任意妄为，多重性格。时而温顺，时而暴戾, Jeanette will be completely transformed. Together with her brother (to be played by Dai Yang Tian), these evil siblings will be at the opposite camp of the angelic bunch played by 周颖 Zhou Ying and 黄俊雄 Elvin Ng.

Jeanette Aw will be playing two roles – the mother and daughter. Mother will die of course…and daughter grows up to become the evil sister.

2010-07-06T17:00:00.005+08:00

I love the way you lie
I found out another thing about myself this morning while i was day dreaming at the sub court. I realised that i am someone who cannot come out of relationship abuse if i am deeply in love. Of course i dun think the abuse i'm talking about is physical abuse, lol, cos i am so STRONG, haha. But there are other things in a relationship that may cause mental abuse like being neglected, cheated on, lied to... etc.

I asked myself would i choose (1) to forgive someone whom hurt me badly but whom i am in love deeply with, or (2) to be with someone who treated me well but where there isn't a strong connection between us, and i chose (1). I have friends who suffered relationship abuse before too, but in the end she also realise that the person who abused her is also the person who loved her the most and so she went back to him. I think i would also be this kind of person too :S sounds so like Rihanna, lol..

How would you choose?

Now I know we said things
Did things that we didn't mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper's just as bad as mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love you're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is i love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed i'll aim my fist at the dry wall
Next time, there will be no next time
I apologize even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
Imma tie her to the bed and set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

2010-07-06T00:00:00.002+08:00

Nadal Rules Once Again

Rafa lived up to his world number one ranking with an impressive straight set win over the other finalist (sorry, i can't remember his name but it doesn't matter). To recall just 3 months ago, people were already writing this talented young man off when he failed to win a single title in 11 months and his rankings dropped continuously. But in a short span of 3 months, he won 5 titles including 2 Grand Slams and 3 Masters to reclaim his world number one title and become the all time most Masters Title winner. You are truely an inspiration, Nadal. The 'never give up' spirit and the determination to chase after every point is something i wish to learn as well :)

2010-07-04T17:52:00.004+08:00

回忆是最可怕的敌人
Many people say that they themselves are their worse enemy. But why is a person his worse enemy? I guess one of the factor is their past experience and memory. A person's past experience will inevitably affect how a person see the future and things to come. No matter if the memory is one that is happy or one that hurts so much, these memories will live on to haunt the person.

I think it is easy to see how can bad experience affect a person negatively. You may have been hurt, or you may have lost something special. You may have hurt so much you don't expect anything better the next time anymore. This is a vicious cycle since the more negative you are, the more likely you would self-sabotage your next opportunity when it comes. You believe in the worst and the worst really happen and the more you would believe in the worst. It is still not that bad if you continue trying, but many people totally give up after a few tries.

It is harder to see how good memories can affect a person negatively. But if you think closer, the reasons why some people are so sad and negative at times is because of the good times they once had which they believe they would no longer experience. The fonder the past memories, the more afraid they may be to try again since they don't want to experience the disappointment. This is essentially the same for people who achieved huge successes, they would be afraid to lose what they have got.

Have you ever been hindered by your past? Have you ever thought you were not good enough and never would be? Have you ever been afraid to lose what you have? A good thing is that it is easy to see once we are reminded. Hope this reminds you and wake you up if you have also been hindered by your past. Come on, it's time to continue fighting on!

2010-07-04T01:56:00.000+08:00

am I strong? Can I be stronger? Will I ever be strong enough?

2010-07-04T00:46:00.002+08:00

Goodbye Facebook.
I closed my facebook account today. I find that facebook is really getting meaningless and useless these days. Games-wise, i keep wasting time with Mob Wars and Farmville. Friends-wise, i didn't get to keep in touch much with people i dun really know and the people i know from there are also quite meaningless. How do you actually trust people you know from the net, 9 out of 10 are probably liars. I'm at this point of life where i'm becoming skeptical about people already, i need REAL people, REAL friends and not cyber ones.

2010-06-30T23:29:00.002+08:00

From Me to U :)
Thank you for being who are you are.
Thank you for loving me for who i am.

最爱把脸靠在你左胸口
每个心跳都是生命的演奏
在你外套里我不再颤抖
世界催我成熟
你却能让我无怨尤

就算我们会像尘埃飘走
我也尊重严格运作的宇宙
它要我珍惜这一次拥有
你是一切理由
眼泪也要勇敢享受

你就在我左右
守候黑夜白昼
我又何德何能
张开手就梦寐以求
你都在我左右
紧握这双手
哪怕身躯会旧
心已被爱渗透
这瞬间已是永久

2010-06-30T18:51:00.004+08:00

24 Hours is not enoughThere always come a time where you find that you do not have enough time. Even someone like me who is supposedly having a holiday without a single internship, I also feel as though i do not have enough time to spend. My schedule is packed from day to day, encompassing work, school stuff, volunteering, gym, tennis, meeting friends... etc.

Maybe i am a greedy person, wanting to do so much in such a short time. Maybe i am a easy person, saying yes to anything and everything. Maybe i am a sensitive person, trying not to disappoint anybody. But it all builds up to a point where i feel tired and just want to spend some time doing what i really enjoy, or maybe not do anything at all and just spend quality time with important people in my life.

But now that i have decided to slower down my pace, i realise i have noone to share this quiet time with, lol. Not quite used to being so alone and quiet and slow, hahahaha. Humans are weird creatures, we always want what we don't have but only start to miss what we have after we lost it.

2010-06-25T23:59:00.002+08:00

Toy Story 3
I just came back from this wonderful movie and thought i would like to share it with everyone. I have always been a fan of Pixar since the first Toy Story movie and since last year when i heard news that Toy Story 3 would be released, i was already eagerly anticipating the release of this movie. You like something when it combines alot of factor which you love. And Toy Story 3 combines so much of what i love that even before watching this movie, i would already have rated it at least 3.5 stars.

The movie did not disappoint with its tight action and compelling storyline. The characters are so lovable and memorable. It also enhances the movie experience if you have watched the previous 2 episodes in this franchise, it's like deja vu! The first 3 quarters of the movie packs much laughter and action while the last part is a touching farewell, especially emotional for people who have been following these toys the past 15 years. Farewell doesn't always have to be sad and love doesn't always have to be selfish. Sometimes, love can simply be letting go, knowing that who you love could find happiness elsewhere. Just re-introduce them to yourself and remember them for the last time, before letting them go, to an owner who can take better care of them :)

2010-06-10T22:57:00.002+08:00

Christina's smashing performance.
She really sings perfectly. She should focus on her ballads instead of releasing one dance track after another. This performance is even better than her amazing one at American Idol. Go listen if you have not :)

2010-06-10T00:14:00.002+08:00

Of Hopes and Dreams
Over at cell group on tuesday, we discussed about life, about dreams, about career. We debated about whether a person should do what they like, choose a career in which they really enjoy or just find a stable job with a good income. We shared about how we would choose if we come to the last day of our lives.

I was easily pointed out as the most lost sheep amoung the group of people. Everyone generally feel that i have no interest in what i am working and what i am studying. Do you feel the same way as well?? Haha, i guess in my case, things are very obvious and anyone who knows me better would know my passion lies somewhere else. Somewhere where there are more uncertainties, somewhere where i may not be as well versed in doing, somewhere where i may not even be able to stand foot on.

I dreamt before. I thought before. I hoped before. I chased before. But i fell. But i tried again. And then i fell again. And i tried again. It goes on and on and one and at the end of it. I feel as though i am still at the same spot - nowhere closer to my dreams. I admire those who continuously chase after their dreams. I feel happy for those who succeeded and i feel proud even for those who didn't succeed. Their faith in themselves and their determination to pursue what they want to achieve in life greatly touches me. I wish i had their courage, but right now, i dun feel as brave.

Maybe, maybe one day i can also be doing something that i really enjoy. Someday, work will no longer be a chore and stress is motivation to push me forward instead of a pressure that makes me feel guility all the time. Now is not the time yet, but i pray the day will come soon :)

2010-05-29T13:28:00.002+08:00

说了再见
最近看到了瑞恩粉丝为她做的短片。短片运用了她在“我在你左右”的片段，加上周杰伦的新歌“说了再见”。看完短片，感触良深。这首歌勾起了许多往事与回忆。我从来不是个坚强的人。虽然不常在别人面前表现脆弱的一面，但每当独自一个人时，也会有感到失落，无助的时候。哭对我来说是疏解压力的最佳方法。

最爱的词的这一段：“说了再见，才发现再也见不到。” 人生里无奈的事多到数不清，每个人多多少少都有一些很痛的经历和遗憾。但生活还是需要继续，这就是人生。我们只能期待未来会有更好的明天 :)

2010-05-28T12:12:00.002+08:00

Christina is BACK!
Christina did a show stopping performance over at the finale of the 9th season of American Idol. This song she performed, "You Lost Me" is taken off her new album set to hit stores on 8 June. Everyone who has heard this performance has nothing but praise to this incredible voice of our generation. Have you heard the performance yet? I've provided the video for you below, remember to get her album when it comes out :)

2010-05-25T01:19:00.000+08:00

Watch it burn.
My heart goes out to the people of Thailand. Especially those in Bangkok. Recently, i've been seeing pictures of the business district of Thailand burn. The riots have caused so much damage to the country i think it would take many years for Thailand to recover. Having visited this city many times to shop and eat, these pictures left a huge impact on me. Just one year ago i was at the exact same shopping centre, eating at the food fair at the exact spot in the picture and yet now all i see is ruins, fire and wreckage. Could this be true or is my eyes playing tricks on me.

We learnt about democracy in school. Ultimately, the power lies with the people. It was said that when things go really bad, the people will stand up against their leaders and make things right again. But looking at the scene happening near home country, i question the workability of such democracy. The people must have suffered quite alot to be so determined to fight for what they want even in the expense of their own countrymen. Could a single political party stage such a large scale revolt? I doubt so.

Looking back at Singapore. Many young people these days complain about how strict and dominant our government is. Even in school, we were also taught to discern the workings of the government. People argue that we aren't really democratic and that the government does not really trust the people. Well, even if it is true, is it such a bad thing? I dun want to wait till something like what happened in Bangkok to happen in Singapore before we regret what we ask for. Pray that the people in Thailand will be alright soon :)

2010-05-21T01:14:00.001+08:00

California Girls covered by Edison :) Go Listen.

2010-05-20T00:32:00.003+08:00

在我左右
Sometimes i really wonder what is love. Different people have different interpretation on what they feel is love. To some people, it's a feeling, to others it could be a choice or commitment. I tried thinking, but i got no answers. It feels like everything and yet it seems like none of the above as well. The song "More Than Words" describe it best, sometimes love is really more than words. It is not something you could describe. I believe love would have it's fair share of problems and troubles, but it is also through these that real love survives and stands out from what is not real love. Love should be easy, even in the midst of troubles and problems. The decisions and actions you take wouldn't have been too hard for you.

Recently listened to a song which i loved very much. It reminds me that sometimes love can be just how someone put a smile on your face, or how you feel at peace in the presence of another. It could also be the happiness of listening to your special someone talking about their day, or how you feel alive listening to the person's heartbeat. Most importantly, this song also reminds me how not to take this special someone for granted and how we must all cherish the special person in our life :) if you found your special someone, REMEMBER to CHERISH him/her!

最爱把脸靠在你左胸口
每个心跳都是生命的演奏
在你外套里我不再颤抖
世界催我成熟
你却能让我无怨尤

就算我们会像尘埃飘走
我也尊重严格运作的宇宙
它要我珍惜这一次拥有
你是一切理由
眼泪也要勇敢享受

你就在我左右
守候黑夜白昼
我又何德何能
张开手就梦寐以求
你都在我左右
紧握这双手
哪怕身躯会旧
心已被爱渗透
这瞬间已是永久

2010-05-18T00:23:00.001+08:00

Bieberblast! LOL. you gotta watch this, haha..

2010-05-17T11:16:00.004+08:00

It's Summer Time!!
I love the summer break because there are always so many big budget blockbusters movies that are shown during this period. The genres are wide ranging from cartoons to science fiction to romance comedy to thrillers. Below are some that i'm looking forward to. Would you watch them with me? :) Haha, even if do you not watch them with me, these are really good movies you can't miss. So to prove my point, i have even attached the movie trailer for your references, hope this would help you in choosing movie to watch this summer.

Shrek Forever After
I don't think i need to introduce Shrek. Whoever does not know about Shrek would probably have been living under a stone for the past 10 years. Dreamworks Picture made records with this classic that 'destroys' classics. Into it's fourth and last chapter, Shrek would definitely be a must-watch for any movie go-er.

She's Out of My League
One of my favourite movie genre, this romantic comedy has all the feel good factor. Ever felt that you are not good enough for your other half? Catch this movie and forget your worries for 90 minutes, haha. Nice tag line too. When you get someone so HOT, you only got ONE shot! Go for it!

Toy Story 3
Pixar never disappoints with any of their outings. Toy Story being the third installment of it's franchise is definitely going to be a blast. I could already feel this being my favourite movie of the summer before even watching it. The theme about love and friendship goes "infinity and beyond!"

The Karate Kid
This movie is a remake and i guess a lighthearted one that could make you laugh and forget your troubles for 2 hours. I'm not sure how good this would be but if there is good company, i won't mind catching it.

The Twilight Saga: Eclipse
Another franchise that is into its third installment. Even though i already know that this is going to be a draggy, over the top love inducing movie, i'll probably still catch it just because everyone watched The Twilight Saga. A good movie to treat my sister to watch and be a good brother, haha.

Inception
This original movie by The Dark Knight director, Christopher Nolan is the movie i'm most anticipated to watch this summer. A science fic blockbuster about people who enters into dreams of others to steal information already sounds like the perfect plot to make a movie. If this movie lives up to its expectations, we would probably be seeing the Avatar of 2010.

2010-05-15T14:53:00.002+08:00

NYU@NUSI started my summer school this week with lesson on 4 days from 3pm all the way till 7pm. It's been quite tiring since i have to make appointments before the lesson and sometimes also after the lessons. But i really enjoyed knowing more about the Civil Law procedures in US and how a case is being brought up to the courts all the way to trial and judgement. There are really alot of differences between the law procedure of Singapore and US but as in every jurisdiction, there will always be problems regardless of the standard procedures. In finding a balance between justice and certainty, there will always be some grey areas that are debatable and controversial. It has definitely been an eye opening experience.

Another interesting fact of this course is that there are so many student from different countries taking this course. I think there are only at most 2 Singaporeans and i am probably the youngest in the whole class. This is because in many other countries, law is a graduate studies and many people already have a prior degree as well as years of working experience before they started law studies. We students in Singapore are really fortunate in this sense, at least we get to learn about legal studies at a younger age :)

2010-05-13T00:33:00.003+08:00

Post Exam Partay @ Screening Room
Me and my friends gathered once again after our hell of a exams to eat, drink and chill. We had a super fun nights out at Screening Room thanks to the reservation of our dear princess, Vani :D It was hot there though, not because there were 10 hot people sitting at the roof top but because there was no aircon!! It's almost a crime in Singapore now not to have aircon, it's just not right at all. But we were lucky cos we got the only sofas and everyone else there for a Friday nights out had to stand on their feet, lol..

We also took the opportunity to celebrate with Vanessa her belated birthday. Bernie made the cupcakes this time round inspired by the Vombies game that Vanessa loves. The cakes were delicious as usual but especially delicious for me cos they were fully and overly chocolaty. Being a chocolate lover that i am, more chocolate is definitely better than less, yum yum..

Till the next gathering, cheers :D

2010-05-13T00:21:00.000+08:00

2010-05-12T01:49:00.002+08:00

Happy Mothers' Day 2010
We celebrated Mother's Day early this year. A day after the exams, we travelled to JB together as a family. It's been really quite long since we went into JB together as a family already, probably since the term started. I really enjoyed the time there just spending time talking with my family :)

We drove there and watched "Together" DVD which i bought but never got to watch throughout this busy semester.

We decided to have dinner at the Stone Grill where we get to cook out own food, so yummy :) though we all ended up smelling like fried oil at the end of the day, lol..

After dinner, we rushed to watch Iron Man 2. It was a fantastic movie and i really liked it very much, my favourite movie so far this year, go catch it if you haven't so done so..

We had my favourite White Tea after the movie, just sit down, chill and relax over some tea and toast, love it !!

2010-05-11T23:55:00.004+08:00

Kelly Clarkson, All I Ever Wanted World Tour 2010
Very lucky to be able to catch the first American Idol winner, Kelly Clarkson on tour on the night of my first paper. She was simply terrific and sang pitch perfect for one and a half hour. It was really different from the usual concerts that i watch. This is the first time i'm watching a gig by an international artist and comparing it to asian artist, the set was much more simple and basically it was just Kelly singing with a live band. No costume changes, no dance, no explosives...etc. Just simply a good voice with a list of good song :)

The turnout wasn't fantastic though and we got free upgrade for our seats such that we were seating alot closer to the stage and get the see the whole performance much clearer. Guess singaporean love asian artists more than international artists, lol..

The crowds were wild and on their feets for the last few songs "Since You've Been Gone" and "My Life Would Suck Without You"..

2010-05-11T14:31:00.002+08:00

900th Post!!
Wow, this is my 900th post on this blog! it's been 6 years since i've started this blog. this goes all the way to when i first started my jc time in NJC through my army days and into my uni life :) this blog witnessed my growing up, my hurts, my triumps, my family, my friends and basically my life. hope you enjoyed reading about my life, my thoughts and my feelings ^^

here's a special something for you guys, my cover of a song i really liked :) i think i will do more covers next time and share with everyone my passion for singing, heehee.. do enjoy and have a nice day everyone :)

2010-04-29T17:31:00.002+08:00

I'm not Superman, I just know what i want.It's been quite some time since i last blogged about my life. Exams has already started but the past month has been much more fulfilling than just studying for the exams. Many people commented that they wonder how i managed to handle so many things at one time and still stay so happy and positive everyday. Haha, i laugh secretly when i hear such comments because maybe they don't really know the 'real' me. My priorities in life is very different from most people. While everyone is burying their heads in their laptops and notes, i may seem to be engaged in other activites, going out or even working. I like to study at a leisurely pace, and use time as well to experience life, to do the things i enjoy with the people i like :)

Law is far from being the most important thing in my life. I'm not saying that it is not important, but just that sometimes i value other activities more. Of course this is only a personal preference and the result would show how much effort each person put into their work. But i am blessed because at least i have been able to pass my exams all the time.

I'm also not always happy. Haha, i'm the emo-momo. The sad song lover. I just usually dun show my weakness in front of others. Only the fortunate, or should i say unfortunate few get to know the sad things in my life, the oppotunities missed, the dreams dashed. Happiness is a choice, and i think everyone can choose to be happy :) are you happy today?

2010-04-26T11:36:00.002+08:00

唯独你是不可取替
read an article i like very much. i scanned it so that you can read it too. it uses the anology of HK stars to talk about how love and friendship. i love it very much, especially "就因为爱，所以不舍得恨。” what a nice way to sum up a relationship which you put your whole heart into!

2010-04-08T21:32:00.003+08:00

Despicable Beings
Today i went back to office to make cold calls for the orphan policies that have been assigned over to me. To those who are not familiar with the terms, orphan policies are the policies left behind after a financial planner ("FP") left the company. Being the person to take over the policies, a responsible FP would call up the orphan policy holders and arrange to meet them to introduce themselves as well as update the clients particulars and information. A non responsible FP would simply put the files aside and do his own business.

What angered me today was when i took over a list of orphan policies from an ex colleague who left and looked through the records one by one. ALL of his policies were fake. He asked his friends/ family/ relatives to put in one lump sum of money (e.g. $800) to get a policy valued at $60. This helps him as the lump sum was presumably for 2 months (i.e. $800 for 2 months = a policy priced at $400 a month). Not only is this unethical, it is inhuman. How can he ask his friends to do that???

To make things worse, i found out that he cheat off his last client over $1000. The client went over to his place to pay him the premium and he did not hand it over to the company. All these only unravel after the left the company when the company sent letter to the client asking for payment of the outstanding loan. OMG!! how can there even be such a person in this world, much less in my company and branch. I am utterly disgusted. It is people like these who made others skeptical of my line of work. I really pity those cheated by him.

2010-04-05T21:46:00.003+08:00

Love Mi Sammi World Tour 2010 The concert i have been waiting for finally arrived! Sammi is very different this time round compared to her 2 previous concerts in 2004 and 2007. She is definitely more energetic and fun, as though she grew younger instead of older the past 6 years.

Having watched the HK version DVD for over a month, i knew the sequence and am familiar with all the songs this time round. And amazingly, she seems ever better than in the DVD for most segments of the concert. She was in tip-top form and her stamina was like never before. The dance segments which were always the highlights of her concerts made everyone stand up on their feet to dance with her and she pulled all stops to put up a marvellous dance sequence, including a backward trust fall which i thought Singapore audiences would not have had the chance to witness due to the small stage.Another major improvement was Sammi's Chinese. I remember myself being super lost when she spoke during her 2 previous concerts as she was speaking in Cantonese. But this time round, 95% of her words were in Chinese and i really appreaciate her gesture :) Can't wait to hear/ see/ read her new works in the near future. Love You, Mi.

2010-04-02T17:12:00.001+08:00

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Language is Quality Time

My Detailed Results:
Quality Time:	9
Acts of Service:	8
Physical Touch:	8
Receiving Gifts:	4
Words of Affirmation:	1

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.

Take the Quiz!
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2010-04-01T22:15:00.004+08:00

Happy/ SadLife is a matter of perceptions. Everyone thinks that marriage is a happy occasion while death is a sad one. But whoever set rules that one must be happy when attending wedding ceremony and feel sad attending a funeral? No doubt these 2 events are very unique occasions in one's life. To me, i believe in a single marriage and (of course) a single death, hence both are once in a lifetime experience that i am interested in.

I always get kinda sad attending wedding ceremony or watching a couple being so lovey dovey. I blame it on jealousy. Or maybe it's envy. Or maybe it's not sad, but just so happy to see that true love does exist in the real world and 2 persons could be so close that they are willing to become one person. At times like those, i wonder if i'd ever get the chance to be someone else's laugher and tears. If someone else would be my support and strength.

Of course i do feel sad when i attend funeral service. But it's also uplifting after the ceremony ends. Maybe it's the place the crematorium is situated, all greens, peaceful, quiet. It makes me think of how beautiful the world is. It reminds me that life is a journey, those who had left went to a better place, but those who live on also have a beautiful place to live in.

To all those who are sad out there, look to the positive side of things. And to those who are happy, share your happiness cos that's the only way for you to stay happy :)

2010-03-31T07:21:00.002+08:00

Christina is BACK! Not Myself Tonight
After 4 years, Christina Aguilera is back with her new album 'Bionic' due 8 June. This is her brand now single- Not Myself Tonight.

2010-03-29T13:24:00.010+08:00

23rd Birthdays
This year's birthday is kinda special since i did not have any birthday party, sorry guys for the disappointment. But instead, i was out having dinner on every night of my birthday week with all my friends and family. Thank you all for the time, good food, great time and wonderful gifts.

I wanted to thank each and everyone personally but haven't got time to do so. Hence, this blog post would be specially dedicated to all you guys who made my 23rd a special one :)

Church
I celebrated with my church cell group mates @ Blue Horizon. My aunt prepared some simple dishes and we had our usual sharing and learning session beside the pool. Special thanks to my sister for giving me a huge blue balloon, i love big balloons and i love blue :) thanks for the ang po, visa card and bath foam as well :)

Law
My dear Law classmates treated me to a meal at Jack's Place. We had a delicious beef steak lunch :) wanted to eat dim sum initially but the restaurant was closed so we had no choice but to find a last minute alternative. Special thanks to my neighbour, Bernie for the beautiful cupcakes. It was really really very very beautiful and it had tonnes of chocolate chips!!! I feel truely blessed :)

Kenny
Thanks ken for the cool bag and yummy chicken rice lunch, haha. Ok, the rice wasn't that delicious but the chicken and the tofu was great. Let's go play more Silent Hill next time, haha, grrr, i'm terrible with these kind of games. Maybe we can play more intellectual games next time so that i can win you instead, hahahahaha.

Family
I treated my family to korean meal @ Iluma. We had a super sumptous meal of beef and kim chi. It was very affordable and i strongly recommend anyone who wants affordable korean meal to visit this restaurant. We moved on to Marble Slab Cremery for ice cream before going home for cake cutting :) My mom got me the choco-licious Awfully Chocolate birthday cake :) Thanks you guys!!

Army
Had dinner @ KPO finally with my army buddies. I had always wanted to visit this place ever since it opened last year so thanks guys for finally giving me the chance to come here, hahaa..The food is good and so is the beer. Most importantly, had a great catch up with you guys just lazing around and chatting :) Thanks Xav for the ride home tooo..

JC
Met up with S21 girls for western food @ Everything with Fries, Holland Village. It is so funny seeing the majong ghost possess Pei Shan and the clubbing ghost possessing Hui Min. Girls are definitely more ON than the guys who were all MIA, haha. I was so terribly hungry i not only ate my share but also a portion of fries of everyone else, tsk tsk, feel so fat now. Thanks for the treat!!

Secondary School
Last but not least, my dinner with 4-4 gang. We had simple hawker food at the usual place in front of Andy's stall. It is still enjoyable joking around with you guys, making fun of Andy and everyone else who wasn't there. Oh, thanks for the cake even though it was really difficult to eat and also the special 'card' board that looks so nice :) thanks JH!

2010-03-27T15:42:00.005+08:00

RIP
I bought 5 goldfishes during the Chinese New Year of 2009 (see first pic). There were really very beautiful and the tank was new and every thing looked very nice. But in one year's time, 3 of them passed away while i was on holiday to Vietnam and Switzerland and only 2 were left to celebrate their first year in the tank (second picture). Even though they survived one year, their colour changed already and the tank was really hard to maintain since it was located outdoor and there was always so much fungi.

Today the last of them died. Kinda sad. This last one was nicknamed "Little Japan" because of its colour (top, second from the left). She is a very interesting goldfish firstly cos she was pregnant when i bought her and her eggs polluted my tank water the first month i had the goldfishes. Secondly, she behaves like a human and prefers diving out of the water to breathe. She also sleeps while resting on the base of the tank instead of floating about in the water. My family adores her for her quirky attics.

But oh wells the tank is in really bad shape and i don't have the time to change their water every week as well. It takes really a lot of time and effort to keep goldfishes because they are very dirty and yet need a very clean environment to live in. Hope the 5 of them could find a better home up in heaven :)

2010-03-22T16:37:00.002+08:00

Chase
i love this old song. it reflects just what i want and look for in life. simple. beautiful. wonder if anyone feels the same way, hahaha.

这一生也在进取
这分钟却挂念谁
我会说是唯独你不可失去
好风光似幻似虚
谁明人生乐趣
我会说为情为爱仍然是对

谁比你重要
成功了败了也完全无重要
谁比你重要
狂风与暴雨都因你燃烧
一追再追

只想追赶生命里一分一秒
原来多麽可笑
你是真正目标
一追再追
追踪一些生活最基本需要
原来早不缺少
有了你即使平凡却最重要

好光阴纵没太多
一分钟又如何
会与你共同渡过都不枉过
疯恋多错误更多
如能从新做过
我会说愿能为你提前做错

谁比你重要
成功了败了也完全无重要
谁比你重要
狂风与暴雨都因你燃烧
一追再追

只想追赶生命里一分一秒
原来多麽可笑
你是真正目标
一追再追
追踪一些生活最基本需要
原来早不缺少
有了你即使平凡却最重要

只得你会叫我彷佛人群里最重要
有了你即使沈睡了
也在笑

2010-03-18T23:28:00.001+08:00

New Beginnings
Jeanette's new channel 8 drama, New Beginnings is debuting in April. Woots, able to see her on television again. And she looks gorgeous this time round in modern clothes :)

2010-03-17T22:10:00.002+08:00

An expensive lesson
My friend used to tell me that if i did not subscribe to data plan on my sim card, i should not go online as it would cost a bomb. I did not believe him and decided to go online as and when i like for a month. I had the shock of my life when i receive the bill yesterday. $153!! and $122 is for the date which i used. OMG! I really should have heeded my well learned friend's advice instead of being a fool and use it without checking :(

And all these had to happen when my family most needed the money. Guess i'll have to tighten my pocket this month and save even more than i usually do.

2010-03-16T23:58:00.003+08:00

Well Taken Care Of
Recently sent a greeting sms to a friend who was to undergo an operation. But the reply i got was rather unexpected- 'Thank you for your concern but he is well taken care of.'

Suddenly i felt kinda lonely. I wonder how good it'll be if one day someone is taking good care of me, heehee. I know that men are usually the ones who are taking care of things, of themselves, of their partner, of almost every little thing there is to do. But ain't it good sometimes to have someone to take care of you as well? Especially in times when you feel tired and helpless, the feeling of being pampered and loved and looked after seems so alluring. Ok la, i shall not go on before you guys think i'm some desperate single craving for love again :p

2010-03-13T22:25:00.002+08:00

Joel x Jianhao LIVE @ NTULive video taken by A-dy Lee. Kinda off for my part but oh wells, just share la, haha :p

2010-03-10T21:08:00.002+08:00

Joel x Jianhao LIVE @ NTU
My first public performance of 2010 is going to be @ NTU Open House this Saturday, 11am!! It's special because it will be the first time i'm performing with Jianhao. I can't remember sharing the stage with him since all the way back in 2003 where we fought it out in CH Music Awards (and he emerged winner).

We're doing 5 songs altogether (2 solos each + 1 duet) and i've even found a guest feature on one of my solo, woooo~~~ but here is the problem.... i got 3 songs to choose 2 out of and i don't know how to choose. So i decided to get you guys to help me. Please poll on the side bar to help me make a decision, thanks :)

1。突然好想你- 五月天

2。第一天- 五月天

3。善男信女- 萧敬腾

2010-03-08T21:56:00.003+08:00

Be The BEST
It has been a crazy weekend, having 2 assignments due today. But as always i managed to survive this obstacle :) Equity assignment was much better than my Public Law assignment, though i still did it all the way till 5am this morning, hahaha. But at least i had the time to edit it and modify it till i'm satisfied with it before i submit it to the office.

The motivation that kept me going yesterday night was the Oscars. I won tickets to watch the show live at GV Grand. It was really kind of them to prepare so much for its card members and i felt really pampered. There was free flow of champagne and Choya with buffet breakfast before we went into the cinema to watch the live telecast on the big screen. Shan and Ross were there to give out prizes during the commercial breaks and i won a 50 bucks TANGS voucher, woohoo!!

I have never really watched the full Oscars Award show before and it was definitely a totally new experience watching it with so many others. I was particular moved by seeing that the hardwork and efforts of the actors/ actresses/ directors/ scriptwritters were paid off in this night. Of course there are many others who totally deserved the awards as well, but i think that by being nominated is already a very huge recognition. I'm not an elitist, but seeing the best of the best in one room motivates me to work as hard. Someday i want to be recognised for my work as well and hope that i would among the greats in whatever field i choose to pursue :p

I had to say the highlight of the show was when Up won for Best Score and when Sandra Bullock won for Best Actress. I felt Up was definitely more than deserving of the award but i got no idea how come i was equally touched when Sandra Bullock won. Probably it is because i saw how she came from Miss Congeniality till what she is today, dunno what to say...

2010-03-04T12:40:00.004+08:00

End of CNY / Mummy's Birthday
To celebrate the last day of CNY, my family set up the steamboat for the once-a-year steamboat dinner. We are really busy/ lazy so we only cook or have steamboat like once a year. Of course i was wildly excited about it as i have yet to do steamboat this CNY and this is the first time in a year since i had steamboat. And after Kenny kept talking about 打邊爐 in HK, i also wanna 打邊爐 soon, hehe.
We prepared a sumptous meal with alot of dishes on the table.

I even decorated my pond with lights :) make it look more holiday chalet like.
We celebrated my mom's birthday the night before @ Xin Wang HK Cafe. This is our favourite supper spot (or maybe just mine, heehee). We ordered quite alot of food, yum yum, which is seldom the case when we usuallly only ordered bread and tea for supper.
Whoa HK fooooddddddd, i love HK..
My sister got this cake from Swiss Bakery. My favourite, Hazelnut.

2010-03-01T13:11:00.005+08:00

It's not so easyHeard a song recently which i fell in love with immediately. The singer is not really someone very famous but she has such an unique voice. I must share it with you guys :)

By the way, the lyrics is super good too. I guess everyone knows how fragile love and happiness is. It isn't easy to find that one person you can feel comfortable with, much less someone whom you love and love you back. And after you found that someone, you still need to learn to live together, accept the flaws that you may not have seen before. You also have to deal with the doubts and struggles that arises when 2 person come together and learn to live through it. At the end of the day, sometimes you may even miss that days where you were alone and single, having the freedom to do what you want when you want it.

But I guess as you grow up, your view on love and dating would change as well. All those dream and fantasy of a perfect fairytale love story would be left behind as you search for the right one to spend a simple life with :)

没那麼简单

没那麼简单就能找到聊得来的伴
尤其是在看过了那麼多的背叛
总是不安只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫

没那麼简单就能去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管

感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话随便听一听自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配電影
在周末晚上关上了
手机舒服窝在沙发裡

相爱没有那麼容易每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麼容易才会特别让人着迷
什麼都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心所以最开心曾经

想念最伤心但却最动心的记忆

2010-02-27T17:25:00.004+08:00

2 Birthdays
Attended 2 birthday parties the past 2 weeks. One of which is my friendly neighbour Berns and the other is my grandma. One was celebrating her 21st year on earth while the other is impressively 83 years old. One was held at a classy (which means it is difficult to find) restaurant while the other was held at a hotel. All in all, those were 2 very different birthday celebrations by 2 very impressive women :)

First up was Berns 21st birthday dinner @ SPRUCE. I was the photographer and i had the luxury of getting a ride from the birthday girl. Being the super diva that i am, i woke up at the time when she was suppose to pick me up. Luckily the birthday girl was all smiles that day and didn't blame me, haha. And she looked really gorgeous in her hairdo, naise..

there was a little commotion due to some misunderstanding with the staff, but with 10 lawyers to be in the room, everything was settled (or shall i say mediated) smoothly. you dun want to step on these guys' foot, haha.
Berns also prepared alot of polariods for everyone to take take take pictures. Of course i also took alot more photos being the official camera man for the day. Haven't got to see my works yet though. Where are they Bernie?

My grandma's 83rd brithday was held at York Hotel. We had high tea buffet, yummy, love buffets. Most of my aunts were present, except the eldest, and we had a wonderful time eating and chatting though most of the time my mind was on the Public Law assignment that was due the following day.
As you can see, my mouse and laptop was just beside me so that i could start work immediately after i finish my meal.
the Chua daughters.

2010-02-20T16:04:00.003+08:00

Chinese New Year 2010
Let the photos speak for itself. This year's chinese new year is definitely a special one. Emotionally it's been like a roller coaster ride. But i guess i was in such a holiday mood this time round, that i find it rather hard to concentrate on my work now. For more photos, just visit facebook :)
The theme i wore for new year this year was White and Blue. I took the simpler route of casual and class put together with my 2 favourite colour- White and Blue. I love the outcome and the looks :)
Day 1: at the church with my gorgeous friends.
and of course, our yearly cny family picture.
Me with the Tan sisters.
Me with my own sister- Jasmine.
It was really coincidental that my siblings and i wore white-black outfits while my parents and grandparents wore red outfits. Talk about generation gap, LOL!
Me and my other sister- Jean. We have this habit of taking a full body picture of what we wore everyday for CNY.
Me and my godparents :)
Day 2: the second day was spent mostly at Sumae's place, we had delicious food, good company and the eye-opener game of BINGO.
the owner (or maybe just licensee) of the house, heehee.
and the full body shot for the second day. This time round, the 3 of us are in very different outfits.

2010-02-14T23:12:00.002+08:00

Glitter in the air

Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Close your eyes and trust it, just trust it
Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face
And said I just don't care

It's only half past the point of no return
The tip of the ice burg
The sun before the burn
The thunder before lightning
The breathe before the fraze
Have you ever felt this way?

Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
You're whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone
Have you ever been touch so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?

It's only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table
The walk before the run
The breathe before the kiss
And the fear before the flames
Have you ever felt this way?

La La La La La La La La

There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee,
Calling me sugar
You called me sugar

Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight
Have you ever held your breathe and asked yourself will it ever get better than tonight?
Tonight

2010-02-13T23:30:00.002+08:00

Happy BirthdayI just wanna wish you a happy birthday, be happy and :) always.

2010-02-10T16:25:00.002+08:00

疼愛

我沉默不代表我不痛
我不痛眼淚就不會流
總是安靜承受安靜忍受
安靜看你走

你說我很適合當朋友
你說我總是會聽你說
你說別太難過保持聯絡
有空的時候

把疼愛都給你把疼痛都給我
最痛是當時微笑送你走
等到你轉身後眼淚也不敢流
只怕你偶然還會回過頭

把疼愛都給你把疼痛都給我
放開手是我最後的溫柔
如果你能飛得快樂自由
這疼痛并不算什么

想挽留　卻為什默點頭
我不懂　連我都不懂我
如果說的太少　愛的太多
有誰能夠懂

千言萬語擁擠我的宇宙
讓我震耳欲聾　喔喔
有多少愛　就有多少
沈默的疼痛

2010-02-06T16:27:00.005+08:00

Valentine's DayIt's Valentine's Day in a week. In the past i used to believe Valentine's Day was no more than a gimmick for those businessman. Like they always say, if two people are in love, everyday is Valentine's Day. But now i learn to appreciate this day. It is the same for New Years day or even your birthday. It is a day where you have the excuse/ reason to celebrate more than usual with your loved ones. If everyday is Valentine's day, then Valentine's day got to be more than Valentine's day, haha. A day where you go for food you won't normally eat. A day you go to places you don't often visit. A day you do things you don't usually do.

But it's ok if you don't have your loved one with you this Valentine's Day, i don't either. Dun beat up yourselves cos i'm sure you're still special in your own unique ways and there would definitely be someone who would appreciate you out there, be it your friends or your future partner :)

2010-02-06T15:23:00.002+08:00

Getting Over

习惯就好

你的手机又收不到
我像疯子在街上绕
努力跑你的温度
雨淋过几条街都散不掉

你面无表情的嘴角
像在嘲笑我的胡闹
回头看突然明了
爱过了使用期效你就想逃

我想维持礼貌忘记骄傲
继续做你唯一的城堡

习惯就好习惯就好
是我选择看不到分手预兆
没有一丝睡意的困扰无法治疗
习惯就好习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我多一秒

习惯就好习惯就好
一个人在雨里继续的奔跑
却发现再也听不到自己的心跳
习惯就好习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我多一秒一秒

Unable to reach your handphone again,
I roam the streets alone aimlessly.
No matter how far i run, your temperature
still stays warm in my heart, unable to wash away.

Your expressionless face,
seems to be mocking my stupidity.
Turning back, I finally realise.
that you chose to hide after our love has expired.

I want to maintain my cool, put down my pride
and continue to be your only fortress.

Get used to it, Get used to it
It was me who choose not to see the signs of us breaking up
Even though i couldn't sleep at night thinking of you, there is no cure
Get used to it, Get used to it
I admit I am not good at pretending to be alright.
Please give me one more moment.

Get used to it, Get used to it
Alone, I continue to run through the rain myself,
yet I could not longer hear my own heartbeat.
Get used to it, Get used to it
I admit I am not good at pretending to be alright.
Please give me somemore time. Just a little bit more time.

2010-01-27T23:35:00.001+08:00

Alone

是谁从我天空摘走了星星
一转眼眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己横行
忘了我也值得被关心
一双手一个梦
一路上不断的俯冲
痛到忘了要怎么喊痛

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹

是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴
天灰了，快乐总有限期
从来都陷在孤独的流沙里
忘了我也配被人在意
一个人一直走看着梦像做了又空
精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊

那是谁的温柔留在我的小手
微不足道却那么重

漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没
整个世界是沉默的漩涡
有谁能陪我手牵着手出走
带我离开空洞的星球
还有什么值得追求
还有什么可以拥有
把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖
有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁
能让我相信被爱的理由

2010-01-26T15:21:00.002+08:00

Hold My Hand
My favourite physical connection has always been holding hands. It is a gesture that does not seem to make me feel uneasy even when the 2 parties are in their 70s. Kissing at that age seems a little bit weird and hugging is just a little too fake. I like the idea of holding a smaller hand and walk around everywhere, haha. It makes the company even closer as if two person were actually walking as one.

I remember a scene i witness 6 years ago after my piano lesson. While i was waiting at the bus stop for my bus, an old couple alighted from a bus and was walking towards the traffic lights to cross the street. They were probably in their late 70s and the old lady had some problems walking as she was moving really slowly. Just then, the old man walked 2 steps back and held the old lady's hand and just walk slowly along with her. This scene was ingrained in my head from that moment onwards and i was overwelmed with feelings. After living for 70 years, what more could you ask for than a hand to hold when you're old and slow?

hope someday i would find the hand i could hold and hold on to it till i'm old and slow :)

你看穿我的冷漠，
亲吻我的烦忧，
不在乎我曾经的错，
如果不是你的款款温柔，
还以为真爱只是一个传说，

请相信我的承诺，
虽然有点笨拙，
但我看见幸福的风，
如果我把我的手放在背后,
愿不愿意牵着一起走。
愿不愿意牵著到最后。

2010-01-25T18:36:00.003+08:00

Take a StandI think i finally found out why i haven't been doing well the past few semester. It is only while going through my Public Law tutorial that i realise what i was not able to do well since entering Law School. I am unable to come up with my own stand when discussing issues. I have been sitting along the fence all these while, re-iterating the different arguements both sides have put forth but not coming up with any argument of my own and supporting it with the different ideas put forth.

Thinking back, i might have been accepted by the Law School in the first place because of my strong opinion on what i think is right and wrong (at least in my view). I was very clear about my stand in different topics while discussing issues with the Professors at my interview 4 years ago. I guess time tamed me alot, or maybe it was the army? I need to get a stand, soon.

2010-01-25T14:11:00.000+08:00

Welcome back Jolin
So happy to see Jolin again.

2010-01-23T23:53:00.002+08:00

祝福下一次总会幸福

善男信女

不远处有一片土
站了一棵枯的树
仔细看那树枝的弧度
像在哭

枯树前杂沓脚步
收集爱情的孤独
为什麼眼前荒芜
是天下有情人的归属

那片山谷入口处
清楚刻著伤心人的墓
那片浓雾隔绝了
其实可以忘了爱的醒悟
别哭

那片乐土是不是
至少能让眼泪都停住
祝福什么都不再记住
祝福下一次总会幸福
祝福爱情的信徒
那善男信女别太辛苦

枯树前杂沓脚步
刻著心碎的控诉
读完别人的感触
却又义无反顾的投入

那片山谷入口处
清楚刻著伤心人的墓
那片浓雾隔绝了
其实可以忘了爱的醒悟
别哭

那片乐土是不是
至少能让眼泪都停住
祝福什么都不再记住
祝福下一次总会幸福
祝福爱情的信徒
那善男信女都别再继续受苦

谁的衣服还穿著
只为遮掩苍白的皮肤
谁的脚步有几个
真的可以远离爱远离糊涂
别哭

谁的信物从此入土
祝福什么都不再记住
祝福很快会找到幸福
祝福爱情的信徒
那善男信女不再辛苦

2010-01-22T23:17:00.002+08:00

Gaga

Have you seen the readings i have got in just 2 weeks? I hope it frightens you, cos it frightened me. These readings fill up my post box every other day and before i know it, there is one whole stack already. And these are just for 2 modules/ subjects. I think there will be no weekends, no holidays, no chinese new year, no valentine's day no nothing for me this semester cos i MUST be more hard working.

Read a quote from August Man this morning : The dictionary is the only place where success comes before work. Well said! I cannot agree more. Guess we gotta put in the effort and work if we want to do well in anything. Hope this inspires you in 2010 and wake you up before it is too late, lol.